Does anybody know what is the real strength? Can you touch it? Can you weight it? Can you tell for sure that giving a fight back is actually harder than passing through all the consequences silently and with the smile.
Because I can’t. This doubt overwhelms me and undermines me.
Once I’ve decided no fears, no regrets and no doubts. But here’s the thing. Time passes, I still keep it in my mind as a measure of all the things I’m going to do, but my attitude to it changed.
On the very beginning I dealt with it by denying all these feelings and it brought me nowhere but to non-acceptance. I learned my lesson. One way or another I was taught how to get this harmony between my inner world and my will.
But here and now I feel like I’m losing this connotation.
I read today ‘in the world where you can be anything be kind’. So is it a real strength? But where is justice?
I don’t have answers and miss the time when I could easily throw all these questions out my mind by denying the fact that I did something wrong. Holy childhood.